October Difficulties

Published: 12th October 2026

I think it may be difficult to write from a lighthearted place this month as it feels that my mental health has been taking a hit recently. I often wonder if i'm leaning into others expectations of me once i'm aware how i'm being perceived. It often feels two dimensional/black and white and I wonder whether it's just easier for the a person to assign a simple reasoning to why someone is in the situation they're in. I do feel like i've been cursed somehow, perhaps not in the literal sense of any kind of witchcraft but I just feel this overwhemingly negative will towards me and at times it does feel supernatural. Though I would argue that harboring those feelings towards another person ultimately has the same result.

I've started going jogging again after a long stint, I stopped after I realised I could be at risk of developing a shin splint which is why I stopped running in my early 20s. I'm trying to take a slower approach this time around so my legs and body have sufficient rest time between the jogs...Read more